Hello @jhymi good morning! I came across this post and had to heave a sigh of relief because I can really relate to it. I'm a 200-level student, and ever since I started college, I've struggled to keep friends. I've often blamed myself, but most of the time, it's not really my fault.

I'm a jovial person who cares deeply about people, especially those in my close circle. However, I'm very sensitive and emotional, which means every word from my close friends affects me deeply because I tend to trust them more.

I recall my first female friend in my first year; we were close, but she would sometimes belittle me with her words and use swear words. Despite this, I kept investing in the friendship. Eventually, I realized I was putting in most of the effort, while she seemed unbothered. That's when I started drifting away from her. She never asked why, and although we still talk, the friendship isn't the same. I still hope to find meaningful friendships because it's lonely at times. I need people I can lean on and express my true feelings to, but I don't have them. I'll just have to keep going and be myself; I can't force friendships.

I've been following your posts for a while, and I must say you're amazing. I recently discovered that we're in the same university, although different departments – I'm a medical student. I don't know if it'd be possible to meet up; I'd love to learn from you and talk more