I don't know how I missed this post.
There's a certain, inherent pain and darkness that is a side effect of higher intelligence. By being able to fully comprehend something, the pain is keener, the loss hurts more, and you can see more steps ahead than those around you.
A sense of uselessness I don't know how to handle.
I could write a book with this sentence.
Well. I wish I could say I'm glad you related to this, but I'm not sure 'glad' is an apt term :) I, in turn, recognize the "inherent pain and darkness" - that's a very good choice of words, my friend.
Glad is a fine and apt term.
There's a person looking down a well, then there's someone else who looks down into the well and thinks "I wonder how many people have wondered about those who have wondered about whether there's any body down there."
If that probably didn't make much sense, I'm waiting for the Melotonin to kick in.
Not sleepy? :) I think more people than we realize wonder about us wondering ;) Goodnight.
Just another curse. The substance is commencing to drag me down into slumber just now, it took about an hour. :/
Ooof. Not pleasant. Have you tried sound healing? Bowls, gongs, such? I know some people dealing with insomnia it helped :) Worth looking into if you haven't.
I haven't. I need the off switch for my brain. Fatigue eventually finds it, but fatigue comes slow.