5" x 8", ball point pen and colored pencil.
Original Drawing:
Normally I would read the black and white drawing but in this case I could not see all that was going on in the drawing so I had to color it in to view it. This took about 3 hours total. An hour for the black and white drawing, an hour for the color and an hour for the reading. I am going to try to start doing these again and I am going to have to figure out pricing for them so that I feel that it is fair, and in addition, I will probably make the original artwork, separate...because I always felt ripped off when I gave the drawing away for such a low price. I can just read the drawing without sharing the artwork at all - and that might be the best thing to do - not sure. I did this Auragraph for my webdesigner, and she will be able to give me perspective on what to charge for it.
You, the Querant, view this as a mirror image. You are squatting in a contorted position. It would be hard to imagine how you would actually sit this way in real life, because the only stable foot is the ball of your right foot in contact with the ground.
This must mean that you have some natural stability in your astrological chart that you can't turn upside down.
We can’t really see your root or sacral (your security or your emotions, passions, family, are obscured). Your right arm is in front and sort of elongated and the tips of your fingers of your right hand are cut off.
Your right arm is crossing your left ankle which indicates that your masculine side is crossing your feminine side. In other words - you overthink your intuitive knowing - always wanting more and more proof and never just trusting and action on it.
This means that you are not able to fully use your right hand – action – in this situation that you are in – you are stunted.
Your left arm and hand are over-sized (the feminine) and your left hand is reaching up to your Higher Power, who is holding your hand with “Her” left hand. Her other hand holds your right arm with Her right hand. Your heart is outside your body, resting on your right thigh, which is the opposite side that the heart actually lives in. Your heart is misplaced – your love is misplaced.
There are 3 spirals in the Auragraph – one which is emanating from your lower left hip area, one that centers in your heart and one which is over the head of your Higher Power.
There are 2 doves flying in a figure 8 pattern above your head.
The dove represents the Holy Spirit and transformation. In alchemical symbolism, the dove often acts as a mediator between opposing forces. It is associated with purification and the perfection of the soul.
The dove is also linked to spiritual awakening. It is often used to symbolize the whitening stage (albedo), where the soul undergoes purification and clarity. The dove's presence in alchemical imagery is closely tied to the idea of the soul's journey toward enlightenment and the integration of opposing elements within the Power.
In Alchemy, the dove is associated with the extraction of the spirit (Mercurius) from the prima materia, representing the emergence of a higher, more refined state of being. This transformation is often depicted as a process of spiritual elevation, where the dove symbolizes the divine or the higher Power. This is not the only place in this reading where Mercury is referenced.
In some alchemical texts, the dove is also connected to the idea of the soul's journey after death, with the belief that the soul returns to the goddess as a dove.
The presence of the spiral and the figure 8 both suggest ancestral karma that you are working out in this lifetime.
The pinky finger of your the right hand of your Higher Power touches your right breast.
In palmistry, the pinky finger, also known as the Mercury finger, is associated with communication, emotional intelligence, and personal expression. For women, it can signify Power-love, confidence, and a strong sense of individuality. The pinky finger is also linked to the Greek god Mercury, symbolizing intuition, persuasion, and intelligence. Additionally, the length and shape of the pinky finger can reveal insights into a person's personality, such as being articulate, emotionally insightful, or sensitive and intuitive. The pinky finger's position and curvature can also indicate aspects of a person's character, such as independence, shrewdness, or a history of family issues. (ask Leo)
This indicates that your having children, or not, is determined by your Higher Power, not your monkey mind.
You should be using a pendulum, dowsing rods, or some other method to make all your decisions, NOT your conscious mind, which is opposed to your body-mind.
There is a lot of transparency – Every element in the drawing is showing that it is transparent which indicates other dimensions, but you, in the physical, transparent, shows that you are not here with yourself.
The birds also symbolize things getting in the way of your communication with your Higher Power, like there are distractions and worldly clamors keeping you from focusing on your inner guidance, which you know is right for you.
There is a symbol hidden in the drawing of a triple helix and an infinity symbol which indicates (made up of the 3 spirals and the formation of the birds flight in the infinity symbol) which indicates– a need for – brain balance – The Trinity – Father (thoughts) / The Holy Spirit (Intuition) / The Son (Action) – which will lead to higher order Neo-Cortex thinking so that you can actually use reason, logic and your heart to make decisions, and the involution and evolution of the Infinity Symbol – as well as that this is past life as well as present life pathwork...
We can maybe use this as the basis for the sigil.
Sigil Says “I follow my heart”
Conclusion:
You have gotten yourself into a situation where you have little access to your intuition and your true self because you have been using your monkey mind to satisfy your longing for family.
Your Higher Power is going to stand by you for as long as you need to try to run your life yourself, but the message is that your Higher Power is in charge – of all the things you “want” – and so in order to get what you “want” you must go through your “Higher Power” – not through your self-will.
Your Higher Power speaks through your Heart – not your false desires which you have substituted for your heart. You have created a lot of commotion so that it is hard for you to hear the still small voice within, but, you know the Truth and you know what you must do because you have confirmations of what makes you happy. You have to follow your True Heart – not your false one and not misplace your True Heart.
There are indicators that communication between you and your Higher Power and between you and others – where you do what makes your relationship with your Higher Power stronger – and trust that you will get what you need and want through that relationship, only.
You would benefit from a daily meditation where you bring light down from the Cosmos and anchor it through your chakras into the earth.